不存在的九歲，2023
Secret Base
150 cm x 120 cm x 120 cm
影像輸出於燈箱、紙箱、手繪紙張
對兒時的自己而言，生日是作為一年當中最期待、亦是最重要的日子。九歲生日當天，家人卻因為忙於工作的緣故而忽略了慶生派對這件事情，那年的自己就像是不存在似的。我思考著這段記憶是否因為情緒的渲染而被過度悲劇化，但當下除了自己以外，在沒有目 擊者提供證詞的情況下，或許事實真偽已成為某種程度不可考的神話。透過影像，帶點戲謔的還原當天的場景，窩在屬於自己的秘密基地，沒有吹熄蠟燭的蛋糕，無法實現的願望。 雙手緊扣，我希望你們也在場。本以為就此補足當年的缺憾，但這就像是徒勞的朝向遠方 無盡的低聲呢喃，永遠無法與兒時的自己進行和解。
For me in the childhood, my birthday was the most anticipated and important day of the year. On my ninth birthday, my family neglected the party because they were busy with work, and it was as if I didn't exist that year. I pondered whether this memory was overly tragic because of the emotions, but at the moment, without any witnesses than my own, perhaps the truth has become totally a myth. Through the photography, the scene of that day was recreated with a secret base of my own, the cake without blowing out the candles, which means the unfulfilled wish. “I wish you were there.” I thought that this would make up for the shortcomings of that year, but it was like an endless whispering in the distance in vain, and I could never reconcile with my childhood self.
